All apologies

I know I have made many mistakes, and I know my issues that others so deeply despise... lack of punctuality(although when it's imperative, I am...), the inability to say no, and mostly NOT informing my friends, when I kind of... "disappear". Hereby I apologise for the incomfort cause to many friends, (not so many they are not), especially to me bandmates Alex, Sandu, Paulus and Roxi. I know it was inadequate but I am like this... I try to change it, and most of the time it works, but sometimes it just doesn't. Oh, and if any of you feel like this is a coward's act, this was just the "foreplay". It will follow by one in flesh- in real words that is - if it's not satisfactory. Good night... Sorry again...

No more...

It is likely you all have seen the post with the "ageless beauty that will never wane"... That was a mistake, and I apologise hereby for writing that. There is no such thing as beauty, just an accident of chaos for more drive... a piece that clouds our judgement and we think it is worth almost everything... Going in circles we fool our ourselves with tiny things, such as beauty and care and how we give in to these things... sure, we need it, just to remember it and move on... but no... we cherish that... it is actually a form of contrast to ye real things... so if you see more "nice" posts, it means they will be deleted; they are kept for these small moments, which will fade and back into the gloom that is called our life. Thanks and no thanks for these... Goodbye...

Birthday Aftermath

From the dark recesses of time, hello again! Since nobody missed me, this hello is for me...
Yes, on the 16th of November 'twas my birthday... Who knew, they let me know, who didn't... well now it's too late... That's why I did not post anything on my blog... Where were we? Oh yes, now I'm 26... pretty old, huh? It made me think about do I really want to be old? Is it fun after you passed like 35-40?Growing up depends on your social status? On what you do? On what you feel? On having somebody in your life or not? I spent my birthday very quietly, all to myself, nobody interfering in it, and it was very selfish, I know... all the right friends called, and that was it... A very good friend had the background help for my mood, so thanks there, and this is kind of it...